Hola Amigos,
The practice of Universal Loving Kindness was enjoyable. I love the way I was able to be at peace within myself and feel the tranquility I seek on a daily basis. It keeps a smile on my face and keeps my mind thinking of all that has happened in my life through the years and how much I have progressed but as long as I am having happy thoughts I am fine as soon as I think about an event that was distasteful in my life my mind totally shuts down. The exercise and assessment process provides many scenarios which presents itself in everyday life from being sick, to anger, to disgust to happiness, and sadness to name a few. I have discovered that I need to try to progress more in the acceptance of loving people that have not been nice to me. I feel I have not totally gotten over that hurdle yet. Trying to resolve those feeling is going to take time and to me the only way this will work is asking God to help me forgive, I have struggle with this for a few years now and as hard as I try to forgive, I have not achieved it yet. I long in the near future to prevail and go on living a much more productive life without having this type of issue hold me back. Other than prayer, I do not know how else to come to terms with my hurt; even though thinking back I always thought if the person or persons would die, that would make things better for me, but I know that that would make other people hurt…… Maybe I am starting to heal slowly but surely, if I am thinking of those peoples loved ones.
JaeC “PENSIVE”
Hola Amigos,
In concentrating on achieving Loving Kindness, though it was beautiful to feel calm and the coolness of the air being inhaled and the coolness being felt on my skin, I could not grasp calm concentration on people that have hurt me nor something happening to one of my closest loved ones. On the other hand, with the Subtle Mind, I felt the same coolness being inhaled and on my face and arms but, the focus and the calm was easier to achieve, I don’t know if it was because it was all about me, all I know that I was able to wholeheartedly engulf myself in this exercise. I deeply enjoyed this one rather that the other one because I was able to feel the point when calm entered my being it is indescribable; my body and mind was relaxed at the same time. All I know is that this is a calm I want to continue feeling. I am hoping to incorporate this in my daily life; I think it would benefit not only me but my household also.
Hola Mis Amigos,
My experience with this particular practice of Loving Kindness was; strange to me. I started to feel chills going through my body just thinking about my children. Focusing on myself I felt happy to think about the good but then to ponder on my past made me uncomfortable and I became antsy. I then went into the thoughts of awareness which I was able to deal with better because it is the reality that I am presently living with but I have somewhat control in the situation. In taking in feeling towards enemies I could not concentrate well because I have not been able to let go of some of the hurt that I have endured within the last few years but that will come once I have come to terms with it, and I know I still have work to do. In all this exercise gave me a great deal of food for thought in the aspect of me still not being able to let go of things so that I may progress in mind and spirit.
As to mental workout, you this exercise really teaches you that you need to keep focus and increase the length of the workout by increments of at least 5-10 minutes because if you do not stager your time it begins to get boring (per my children). Implementing this workout helps you gain a calm and tranquil way about you which is kind of strange to me because it does not allow me to get frustrated or angry.
JaeC
